Iuda

Judas.
Although I am sick and helpless, I do not regret that I exist.
I try to feel sorry for myself, but it makes no sense.
Do you know why?
What stops the pessimism of self-denial is the evidence of my existence.
The man who commits suicide has not realized that he is a man. Let him live for himself.
I cannot commit suicide - regardless of my condition, health or illness - because I did not make myself.
I did not come into this world of my own free will. And I will not leave it of my own free will.
This is the fundamental game of my existence. (Petre Tutea)